Today I am writing from Harborview Hospital. My husband, my generally healthy husband just came out of surgery to have his gall bladder removed. It is kinda surreal sitting here, even though it was a relatively minor surgery, when it's my husband, my happy, my negroman (that's his bowling name), my partner in life, its not minor to me. Sitting here waiting, and waiting, a realization came to me that I am not in control of Dee. God created him, all of him. Period. So my thinking that there are parts of Dee under my jurisdiction to change because I'm his wife, is just an old wives tale. An old old wife who is probably really frustrated and confused at why her husband after all these years is not changing. I have a new strategy, go to the creator and request a heart transformation. Not for Dee, a heart transformation for me. Just going out on a limb but I'm thinking if my heart leans towards what Jesus wants for me and what he is showing me to do then as he has done since every minute of Dee's life he will show him what to do, change or be. God is the creator of life and I am trusting for there to be life in every area of mine and Dee's life.
Thankful that Dee is healed. Praying that the incisions from the laproscopic surgery, and the muscles around it heal quickly and we can move on to the next phase. What ever that looks like.
I love you Mr. Smith. period.
Fast or slow life is going to happen. Big time or tent city you have to do this thing called life. Sharing my steps,missteps,joys and tears is my goal. For you to bust out of ruts, think differently. My story is being written every day by grace and so is yours. Thank you for reading be blessed.
Amen :) and love you too
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