Response to "The first Day" Written by My family of Women

I saw you walking alone, alone yes but with purpose.  For some God reason there was a boldness in my heart to call you.  Reaching out into the unknown was actually a part of my job description at the time, but now it's kinda a lifestyle...... This day was different, guided, intentional.  You see a couple of weekends before at a church event something in my heart was sparked in way that had never experienced.  A brief conversation about nothing and everything, left me wanting.  Praying for daddy for my girls, daring to pray for a husband.  So I called......"Sure come over."  The door opened to myself, Moriah and Ephesia's future. Standing at the threshold of that door, one minute alone desired by no man, to raise my beautiful daughters, the next sitting on the couch watching football with my best everything.   Played out in front of me was a man of action with  the kindest eyes, the desire to attend to needs (wants), an all around aura of happy that was almost scandalous I mean who does that, no game face, no attitude only acceptance, only embrace of destiny.  Ok that was a little cheesy but looking back it's true, there are some moments that define your life for me even as I was in the present living those precious moments.  God was etching it on my brain.  Not going to lie I didn't want to leave to go home that evening.  The chemistry was undeniable.  The feeling of I belong here was unshakable.

That day there were 2 other people standing at the door who have over the years caused many a series of unfortunate events for Dee and I. Insecurity and abandonment.  Being guided by the Holy Spirit overruled them that day, silenced their paralyzing words.  With the bravery of a warrior and the softness of a women full of promise that the Lord knows the plans he has for me, plans to prosper not to harm, plans to give me a hope and future, the God fought and won those negative voices I cannot fathom how my life would be had he not.

I knew this was my husband from the very beginning.

Mr. Smith has given me so much, all the little moments about everything and nothing have taught me grace and mercy, lived out joy and laughter, experienced peace and challenge.  Life intentional not forced.