Ok so yeah it has been almost a year since I wrote a new blog...... I wish I could say it is because of some great reason, honest truth is I wimped out. The name of my blog is Recklessly Authentic these past months I have felt anything but reckless or authentic. My inclination is to protect myself protect my heart and lie. Not big whopper lies, just little ones like everything is fine, Oh life is great or here's a good one it's no big deal.
God has been doing some open heart surgery on my marriage and instead of fixing my husband which is what I have been telling God is the issue for years, he is fixing me. And it hurts and it sucks and its embarrassing that my life isn't perfect like I think it should be. Big new flash it's not about me!!!!!! This process is not about me and my ideal life, its about the plan and purpose God has for me, my man, and my family. And most importantly the people that God is going use us to bring change to. My struggles are not for me to learn lessons and get victory although that will happen. It's for the person I run into that has the same look of shell-shockness that their life is turned upside down that I can bring hope because God brought me through and he will for this person too.
Two years in a row I went to Uganda for a "mission trip" what happened was a life shift. Mr. Smith with grace and strength let me go, he started blogging as a way to express what it was to be on the other side of the world without me. Today Mr. Smith is launching out and beginning a new chapter not around the world, but around the corner on the other side of Rainier Ave. It's one thing to bring the gospel of Jesus to people on another continent that you may not ever see again, but it takes a certain bravery to bring the gospel of Jesus to your neighborhood, people you will see at the grocery store, the library and at your kids school. So proud this morning of my husband, the man who leads our family, provides and makes my life and so many others shine.
I don't know it might be another year till I blog again who knows but today I am grateful, content and resting in all the good and abundance God has given our gang.
Fast or slow life is going to happen. Big time or tent city you have to do this thing called life. Sharing my steps,missteps,joys and tears is my goal. For you to bust out of ruts, think differently. My story is being written every day by grace and so is yours. Thank you for reading be blessed.
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