Transition

Transition- "a movement, development, or evolution from one form, stage, or style to another" noun,  "to make a transition" verb.

Life for this girl is one of perpetual transition  for those stuck in mundane or monotonous day to day life, I kinda envy you.  I feel like if any one thing in my life gets more than 3 months of my attention it is permanent........  

Current list of stable things, Husband had him for 11 years, kids had them for 17 years, job had that for 3 years, apt for 3 years.  Jesus has been with me every moment of my life, he knows my yesterdays, today and tomorrows, and he still is passionately for me.

In transition is our church community and schedule because of Dee's new internship with the Christian Non-Profit Urban Impact.  We have been praying and asking God for this position and now that he has it I want to be on the team by not getting tripped up about a lack of schedule and getting involved in a new church group.  When you are giving birth to something the transition time is the hardest, its also the time right before something is birthed completely    

During this process I have been feeling so guided and comforted by God to trust him all the way.  To not doubt that God is up to something, that God has a big plan for Dee and I in the area of ministry.  It's who we are, people who give and serve and I want to be one who makes her daddy proud.  

There are moments when I feel not so confident in my abilities, thank you Jesus it is not it not me who makes me able.  It's Jesus.  Moments where I think to myself why me Lord? Why  did you choose me to do this, to be here at this moment in history?  I can only conclude I got what someone else needs, my obedience to selflessly serve someone else will bring freedom.  

Who around you is not free?  Who has got some debt, some frustration, some lack that you because of your great faith in Jesus you can cleanse with some salt and shine some light on.  Freedom isn't free.  There are days when I wonder if I have what it takes to pay that price, truth be told none of us do, but God daddy does.

Loving my life right now, wouldn't trade my position of reliance, vulnerability, and grace that that the Lord has me coming to Him for all matters regarding my sanity, plans and dreams.